Sunday, September 13, 2015

P O S T C A R D S . F R O M . B A L L Y E R

Greetings from The Dark Side, The Belly of The Beast.. I blog over at FACEBOOK now.

Here is the latest offering. Please read and enjoy!

[After each of the 3 photos of my hometown below, i wrote a short reflection]

A thousand Thanks for all the wonderful photos to Edward Brennan
who is posting lots more on Facebook in the group
Ballyfermot: Past, Present, & Future

This used to be my playground in the late 60s/ early 70s. Even today, often when i dream i find myself up there at the 'Layer'. 
It was at the end of our road but it seemed miles away. It was so full of kids it seemed huge. To quiet boys like me the children there were so free and open though they were dirtier and much more rough and tumble than us. 
I went to Pre-School there and can still smell the Marla [playdough] on my hands. I can still remember screaming the place down when 'Santy' [Santa Claus] came too close and spoke to me, trying to give me a present wrapped in old-fashioned Christmas paper... 
I remember being up there as a teenager on my bike. I stayed a bit too late. As it grew dark, I saw things in the shadows i had never seen before... A young straight couple in one corner having full-on sex, their clothes around their ankles and biting lumps out of each others necks... In another dark corner one man smoking a joint helped another fella inject heroin into a swollen vein in his thick forearm. At the exact moment i passed by, the heroin took effect and the stocky man swooned into oblivion. His pal cradled him and took the opportunity to kiss him on the mouth and slip his hand down into his jeans to feel him. He winked at me asking if i wanted to go closer for a quick feel... I lept on my Raleigh 20 and tore off down The Parade as fast as my legs would carry me... But i never forgot them. From then on, i KNEW there were gay people everywhere.

All my memories of Ballyer are of endless, sunny days. 
It must have rained. It was Ireland afterall: it must've rained A LOT! 
But i can hardly recall ever being caught in a rain shower or having wet clothes... Even my solitary memory of trying to slide on an icy patch on our road like the tougher fearless kids happens not on a cold, snowy day but on a crisp, clear afternoon with grey-blue skies and piercing sunlight... 
In this photo i imagine i see Daddy's car - a black Morris Cowley, my first crush the blackened stocky coalman's horse-trap parked up for the day... 
I am safe and warm inside our house [Number 7]. 
Not seeing any rain. 
The radio is on. 
Just me and Mammy.

When i was a boy, the Number 18 bus was one of the greatest mysteries to me... 
We had two other buses. The 78 and the 79.
They went to 'Town": a dirty, dangerous, exciting place. The Great Unknown for us kids. Only certain teenagers and people in their 20s went there. If they had bus-fare and something to spend, or just for a bit of a wander around.

But The 18?? ... Now THERE was a real unknown quantity!!! It went form Ballyfermot [one of the city's poorest areas] all the way through the poshest suburban 'villages' where The Elites lived and laughed. 
Their palatial homes with palm trees and pools stretched out across the mythic fields of Elysium to a place called Sandymount by the sea [one of the richest areas in Dublin].
I could never see WHY 'they' would need a bus to come to where WE lived, or why they would allow US to go to where they lived! ... So i took the 18 one day to see for myself.

Mesmerised, I sat upstairs and looked through every house window i could. They lived like kings! Even their gardens were incredible! Some had swimming pools and waterfalls!! There were cinemas, bowling greens, lawn tennis clubs, verdant squares with rich boys training in tight shorts for rugby... 
I asked a middle-aged woman on the bus why Ballyfermot people would go to the posh places. She put out her fag on the floor between us and coughed into a hanky she took from up her sleeve like a magician... "For fuck sake youngfella, would ya ever get a bleedin grip on yerself!!! The likes of us come over here for only one thing: We're the cleaners!!!" 

From then on i couldn't get it out of my mind! I could NEVER forget that a totally different world existed beyond ours. It called me in the night. I wanted to go back there and claim it for myself... 

I went three significant times that i can remember. They were all momentous days in my life: 

1. I went to the cinema alone for the first time [Planet of the Apes at the Classic 'picture house' in Harold's Cross, where i now live.

2. When i was 18 i had my first gay date. He was a motorbike policeman who lived up the road from my current home [he was too grabby. there wasn't a second date. he passed away some years later from AIDS].

And finally, 3. I was taking the 18 bus one night to meet The Gorgeous M [the love of my life] for a date at his new house. I was wearing my best clothes [Early 80s chic. New Romantic streetwear]. While waiting for the 18 to arrive i was 'Queer-bashed' at the bus stop by a gang of thugs who were passing by. 
They kicked the shit out of me and dragged me along the path, my long tweed coat pulled over my bloodied face and head. 
Nobody else at the bus stop intervened on my behalf. Nobody screamed Stop, Get off him! 
The bus came... I managed to pull myself free! I got on, blood streaming from a cut over my eye. My hands were so raw and scraped from the fight i could hardly use them to count out the fare. The busman just leaned towards me and took the exact fare from my handful of change saying 'For Jaysus sake! Will ya ever get on!!!' ... 

That was the night i decided to leave Ballyer. 
I never went back.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014


It may not surprise you to know that I passionately believe in R E V O L U T I O N.
It is how i view Politics. It is how i view Buddhism.

I believe Revolution is the very essence of Human Nature; It is what makes us human and drives our socio-spiritual awakening. We all want Fair Play. And when it eludes us, we rebel and lash out. We call to the world: "Wake up and smell the kaka!". But revolutionaries and prophets are not enough.

Religion and Philosophy help us to understand that we find Awakening INSIDE US.

The 'World' teaches us that the best way to live is in [or on the fringe of] a FREE AND EQUAL SOCIETY - one that SELF-ORGANIZES, FROM THE GROUND UP and is open to change and continual growth.

This means we do not require A PRIESTLY CASTE - we must connect with the Buddha/God/Spirit with us OURSELVES.

It also means we must not allow our struggle for equality and freedom to be hijacked or led by SELF-APPOINTED SPOKESPEOPLE. They do not have a mandate. The danger is they may not be serving others, but that they could actually be self-serving.

It may even be in their interest NOT to have equality achieved!

For as long as the struggle for freedom continues indefinitely [with them firmly placed at centre stage, of course], then there is always the need for a Freedom Movement. And a group of self-appointed leaders. Who lead from above. While those below never actually get to take for themselves that to which they are fully entitled.
Leaders may come and go. That is the nature of the limelight. Some may even appear to be 'elected', albeit from a small pool of pre-selected candidates.

But the same fundamental, systemic flaw remains:

The system is rigged.
It is a white-wash.
It is designed to never actually deliver.
It supports hierarchy, and things remaining the same.
It does not bring true change at the rate the people require.
It is just another charade, within an unjust facade, dressed up as Choice, all smothered in a shiny, chocolatey layer of shit.

Self-organizing, from the ground up. 

For example, in relation to Gay Equal Marriage in Ireland:

The people's grass-roots, revolutionary movement towards full equality is fast being RE-hijacked by those who stand to benefit most from BUSINESS AS USUAL rather than Freedom and Awakening.
If marriage equality is to be achieved by the referendum in 2015 - and i hope it finally is - then it will have been achieved by the power and the truth of ordinary people. Not by those who wish to be associated with that historic moment.

Consider the facts...

If my livelihood DEPENDS ON gay people remaining in their present corrals, and their freedom and equality never being fully delivered, then i must APPEAR to do all i can to serve QLGBT equality, while never actually bringing it about.

If Freedom WERE achieved by my direct efforts, it would be like the proverbial turkey leading the campaign to Vote FOR Christmas!

I would be leading directly to my own financial downfall.
I would be putting myself out of a job [to say nothing of my plummeting social status].
... And, let's face it, if i personally benefitted most from being A BIG FISH IN A SMALL POND i would rage with all my might and rail against anything that threatened to take fish off the menu completely, or which could lead to the pond becoming an ocean.

How would i make a living from a social subset that didn't need me anymore?
Who would save my failing business if i couldn't get myself on telly, fake a storm in a D Cup, and drum up some punters?
Who would buy my autobiography?
Or go see a documentary about my rise to minor celebrity?

If and when the people SEE THROUGH WHITEWASHES SUCH AS THESE, and grasp for ourselves the equality we demand, then the gay world in which we live - the ghetto through which we move and have our being - will ALSO HAVE TO CHANGE... CHANGE RADICALLY.

There would nolonger be any need for professional lobbyists to act on our behalf.

There would be 20 gay bars around Dublin instead of 2 [soon to be one, i hear].

QLGBT people ourselves may also grow, more freely, totally out of control ... perhaps even to the point where we refuse on a night out to become the captive audience of whatever lip-syncing wannabe in a frock the scene involuntarily retches up for our further anaesthetization.
Just like every human being on the planet, we would become more involved with the task of CREATING THE WORLD WE WANT, FOR OURSELVES.

A world where the big questions would not be about what people like to do with their genitalia, or who can marry whom [to say nothing of who wrote what about whom online or how the wounded party made the regrettable mistake of retaliating by resorting to tragic, midnight cyber-bullying or a feeble attempt at social exclusion worthy of petty fascist manipulators around the planet.

A global community is emerging in which we are primarily concerned with caring for others rather than ourselves.

The main stepping stone of the age, towards that brighter future, is to SEE what is happening right now around us. Who is doing what. And why we are not yet free.

To paraphrase Voltaire, 'If you want to know who is trying to control and rule over you, discover who attempts to stop you criticizing them'.

We need to keep our hands firmly on the reins, and drive all the way up this path to liberation ourselves!

PS By the way, don't get me wrong: i have known and liked many good people whose profession it was to lobby for LGBT Rights. Furthermore, i actually love drag and lip-sync... It's what lies behind it all that needs to be examined, and transcended, AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

We must NOT be afraid of naming what we see.

Nor should we be distracted from the ultimate goal of Equality by whatever bullying, personal attacks, or 'de-friending' that expressing the truth may draw upon us. That is to be expected, and is afterall the very nature of what a 'whitewash' is and does.

Soon transcended. Soonest forgotten. Sooner still consigned to the rubbish heap of world history.

May Love and Light prevail.
May the beige negativity that currently passes for integrity be completely swept away.
And may all oppression, of every kind, be dispelled into space! 



Sunday, August 3, 2014

a new poem


[for Oisín]

Staring wide-eyed into Space: Natural, Open, Awake…
I sit contentedly on a park bench, by a lake, under an oak,
In Paris, in the lotus garden of the rosy Templars.

And a Music shall be my Salvation;
A hidden music that no one else can hear.
That Limitless Love drifts out of me, off out into Open Space,
I am Shining in this Dark Age. Joy Rising.

I am singing inside, my own cosmic Halleluia.
Arising from the Eternal OM, comes the AH, then the HUM…
Far beyond that grey horizon, without a thought or care,
I chant my silence. A gentle hymn to my own perfect essence:



B o … k e t … t o

[Dublin, 3 August 2014]
especially for those touched by autism 

'BOKETTO', Japanese word for gazing into open space without a thought.

Monday, May 12, 2014

BIG BUDDHA DAY 2014. Wednesday, May 14.

Celebrate the Buddha's life and teachings by sitting in meditation [publicly] for 1 Hour.
Alone or with friends, just sit...

This is an International event and falls annually on the day of the MAY FULL MOON.

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Phew!!! That Feels Better...

I'm incognito because I don't want a FaceBook Fatwah against me!
I think the potential for people sharing TOXIC images and messages on FaceBook is literally without limit, and dangerously spiralling out of control...

This morning - over the course of one cup of coffee - i saw extreme suffering and mutilated people and animals, i read hate speech [which is actually a crime, but FaceBook doesn't remove it when you complain], i saw sexually explicit images and videos [that any young person just one step removed from that page could easily access e.g. a young friend of a friend], i saw a new [previously unknown] friend's page for the first time [full of provocative photos of young, pre-pubescent girls posing and pouting, and music videos of none other than Gary Glitter of all people!]... The list goes on and on... No wonder so many people just stop using FaceBook altogether... Who wants all that stuff as part of their day?!

A simple quick scan to see how your friends are

Thursday, November 7, 2013

New WWW Address

Due to Google Apps' ineptitude in assisting their customers to keep their existing customized web addresses, I [and millions like me] may lose our personalized www very soon.

I own and have a valid credit card on file with google which is set to auto-renew my ownership of the above URL.

However, because of some change or other in Google Apps, i may lose that next week [and have to try and buy it back at a premium]

If that happens - and i don't manage to secure the purchase of the same www - please find me on the original address

I may eventually have to purchase a different www
So please also check   or   .net  etc

I thought computers and the internet were supposed to make life and communication easier ?!?!

If all else fails, please find me on FaceBook

Sorry for being so quiet on this site.

Still sending L O V E  and L I G H T  to all,

Friday, May 31, 2013

The King of Tibet

Ever since the 7th century, Tibet has had an unbroken lineage of Kings, whose primary role in life was to serve and lead the Tibetan people according to the principles of the Buddha's teachings... The 20 year old Trichen Namgyal Wangchuk is the current King of Tibet.

This week, Trichen graduates from private boarding school in the United States - the same one made famous by the movie Dead Poet's Society - and like so many other young people in America will begin a four year degree in the autumn.

 But he is not like most ordinary students his age. Apart from being calm, compassionate and wise, Trichen has inherited the mantle of monarchy from his father, the previous King of Tibet. His beloved father died in exile some years ago in India, and Trichen automatically became the next King under the guidance of his mentor HH Dalai Lama, who advised him to leave the school for refugee children in Dharamsala where he was boarding at that time and get to America where he might be lucky enough to receive the sponsorship necessary to get a thorough Western education. 
The intention was to prepare him for the possibility of leading the Tibetan people, from inside Tibet, at some future point in the country's beleaguered history.

In America the Tibetan boy king had the good fortune to also be taken under the wing of film maker Holly Carter, with whom he collaborated on a short documentary about himself and his native country Tibet.

You can enjoy the film HERE 

And HERE is a wonderful online article/interview from a local [US] news and current affairs agency in Delaware.

Although Trichen was obviously nervous and aware of the emotional impact of the opportunity, you can clearly see glimpses of the extraordinary man he is rapidly becoming in a short talk he delivered as part of the prestigious TEDx initiative. You can view the clip HERE 

Congratulations to Britain's DAILY MAIL for being perhaps the only mainstream media to pick up on the existence of the young King of Tibet, and to draw our attention to the important role he may yet come to play in the country's future.

If we learn only one thing from the wisdom of the Buddha it must surely be this -


Therefore accept and embrace change
And always remain open to other possibilities
When change comes, don't resist it but learn to surf it
Use change to get where you want to arrive


Long live His Majesty Lhagyari Trichen Namgyal Wangchuk!
May his life bring immeasurable benefit to the people of Tibet!


Saturday, May 25, 2013

Happy BIG BUDDHA DAY 2013 !

Today is the trifold anniversary Of Buddha Sakya Muni.
He was born, got enlightened And attained parinirvana On the full moon days of this month 26 centuries before now.
This is the time for us to remember that great apostle of peace. The teacher who taught us to train Our mind and awaken within us The great wisdom and compassion.

By Ringu Tulku 25th May 2013

Enjoy Big Buddha Day 2013, Everyone.
May your Presence bring Love and Light to All!

[If you gather and sit today, please post messages and photos in COMMENTS on , or on my FaceBook 'Bruno Nua', 'Big Buddha Day 2013' Event, or email to me and I will do it for you]

Wednesday, May 22, 2013


Dear AMJC,
Wonderful seeing you again today.

I thought you might enjoy these 3 films - one for each of my precious masters
[thanks to you i became their student]

Sogyal Rinpoche
Thich Nhat Hanh
Ringu Tulku Rinpoche


Thank you so much!
Love and Light,

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Big Buddha Day 2013

BIG BUDDHA DAY 2013 will be Saturday May 25.

The May Full Moon occurs from 24th to 26th [depending on which part of the world you are in].

Therefore we can choose Saturday May 25 at 3pm.

This year the suggestion is to gather with friends in ANY public place that inspires you and simply sit for 1 hour together:

If you would like to communicate with others about where you have arranged to sit at 3pm please feel free to click on the title bar of this post and leave a message below or - better still - go to and do it there.
The Event is also on facebook... simply search Big Buddha Day 2013

Spread the Love and Light!
Shine in this Dark Age,


PS I will be sitting by the benches where people wait for trains in HEUSTON RAILWAY STATION, DUBLIN, IRELAND.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Dzongsar Khyentse Rinpoche Teaching on what GURU really means

DZONGSAR KHYENTSE RINPOCHE is the reincarnation of the pre-eminent Tibetan Buddhist master, Jamyang Khyentse Chokyi Lodro.
For those who are not yet familiar with him [DKR], there is plenty of information and tantalizing links all over the web.

I recently had the good karma to meet MARTIN DUDEK on my travels. Amongst many other positive deeds, he is in the process of sharing online a collection of teachings by DKR in a blog to which i highly recommend you subscribe for updates.

Here is the blog's main page, which begins with the latest post

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

London Calling

I have finished writing my first novel, LONDON CALLING.

It is number one in a series of five 'Dharma Mystery-Thrillers'.
The books all feature Jalu, a wandering Tibetan Buddhist Master, who is both narrator and principle character.

Each novel explores one major theme from the Buddha's teachings.
In the first one, Jalu is in Spain where he meets Virginia Blake [a 62 year old English woman living in Madrid]. She has Early-Onset Alzheimers but has become embroiled in a fast-paced road trip: She and her friends are on the run.

Think Pedro Almadóvar meets Dan Brown meets Dzongsar Khyentse Rinpoche, and you're half-way there!

On the surface, LONDON CALLING is a novel about history, espionage, truth and lies.
However, it is also a profound contemplation on the Mind, and the Buddha's teachings on Meditation.

Any publishers out there?

We have moved to Bangkok from Koh Chang, our paradise island. Soon, we will leave Thailand and slowly make our way back to Ireland for sometime in June. 


Monday, January 28, 2013

just keeping in touch...

Dear Friends,
Annie Dibble, of Bodhicharya Ireland, invited me to share a bit about what i am up to these days, so here goes. [If you are feeling bad because you haven't been abroad for years, this will do your head in so STOP READING NOW! LOL!]

Wednesday, January 2, 2013


Interestingly, the Gorgeous M and i have undergone a sudden awakening on the road to damascus... no, honestly, we woke up rather abruptly in the back of a mini-van, all tied up like, and when we asked our captors where they were taking us they simply said 'Damascus'!...

ah no. only kidding... phew! ... but we did have a total epiphany... you see, there were all these shepherds, and kings bringing gifts to the Christ Child.... NO STOP IT... there i go again... Sweet Baby Jesus, my morning coffee was strong today...

What i'm trying to tell you is... you know we had planned to live in Phuket for a few months, starting any day now

Anyway, we have decided to move lock stock and barrel to Cambodia instead!

We need to do something that neither of us has done before and we heard of this place called Koh Kong on the coast just over the border in Cambodia. The name kept cropping up in random conversations with diff people, so we said Ah Here... the universe is inviting us to explore somewhere new so who are we to keep our legs closed in the face of the cosmos and all that. i mean that's like HUGE and everything, right?

So, after a quick few days in our favourite spot in Thailand [jan 6 - 9 on Koh Samet Island], swimming and hanging out with good friends, We're off on the 14 of jan til sometime in April

We must be mad, but we can't be arsed going on a recon mission. So we will bring all our bags with us the first time and take it from there... the hair gel alone plus books on Buddhist Philosophy weigh, oooh? i'd say at least 40 kilo

Ever heard of it, Koh Kong? [or the other main town on the coast, Sehanoukville?]

Private message me if you have any tips or ideas about accommodation

Sure, what else would a person do, right? ... In the pursuit of sanity and a blessed retreat, i head for the sea... OOOH LA MER ! ... yes... the sea

Yoko Ono is right, darlings:
For 2013, she took out a whole page in the NY Times that simply contained 2 beautiful words, overflowing with limitless Wisdom and Compassion...




Saturday, December 15, 2012

retreating from it all...

The Gorgeous M and I have retreated to South East Asia again for a while.
Sometimes it is just the right thing to do - make a break for it, and leave the over-familiar far behind. This time, we have rented a small place in Bangkok as a starting point. Soon, we hope to be somewhere by the sea. 
Having arrived not long ago, i had to hit the ground running as i was invited to guest-lecture in Chulalongkorn University on key aspects of The Heart Sutra. It was such an honour for me as the university is perhaps the most prestigious in Asia and those in attendance were mainly post-graduate students particularly keen on the topic. 
While speaking, i was mindful of many different contributing factors:
Of course the blessings and teachings of my masters Sogyal Rinpoche, Ringu Tulku Rinpoche, and Thich Nhat Hanh are always with me, informing whatever i share in such a situation.
I was also very mindful of the place where the Buddha taught on this topic [and all the Prajnaparamita Sutras]. I have clear memories of being on pilgrimmage in Northern India at Rajgir [Vulture Peak Mountain] where the Buddha first offered these teachings.
Even just being in Chulalongkorn University brought back fond memories of the movie The King and I and Anna and the King. It was the king's son and heir, Chulalongkorn, who was so transformed by his European-style education that he was later inspired to found the famous university in Bangkok.

But now i look forward to resuming writing my novel London Calling: Jalu Rises in the West. I am enjoying the process so much as this is totally new territory for me - fiction, fun, my own fusion of thriller drama and dharma. As with previous writing projects, i continue to write with little regard for being published although i do always write with readers in mind. All that can come later.

...Finally, i would like to share with you a beautiful short film called Lazy Lama made by Niko von Glasow, another student of RTR. 

This mini-documentary not only introduces Ringu Tulku Rinpoche but focuses specifically on the Bodhicharya Retreat Centre in the Himalayan foothills of Sikkim.

It shows something of the retreat environment and the centre itself. But, above all, the film follows a small group of Western practitioners doing a traditional Tibetan Buddhist long-term retreat -  always awe-inspiring, often unthinkable at least for those of us still deeply rooted in Samsara ... their strict retreat lasted 3 Years, 3 Months and 3 Days.

Many of us were delighted to contribute to the building of the retreat centre, and in particular the incredible finishing touches such as the art work and the large bronze Buddha you see in the film.

It also just so happens that i was privileged to tag along with RTR and his brother Pema who built the centre one afternoon actually during the 3 Year retreat mentioned and have a rather unorthodox and tantalizing snoop around the building while the retreatants were in their rooms doing individual meditation practice... 

a very short montage of shakey-cam video snips i made that day can be found at

Then the retreatants suddenly began appearing for lunch break so i was whisked away in Pema's landrover back across the valley to Sikkim's tiny capital, the comparatively bustling metropol-ette of Gangtok.

Happy Days!

[... more on the current stay in Thailand as it unfolds]

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Eckhart Tolle speaks in detail about his Awakening

Thanks to a brief conversation with David, one of our house-mates, I began thinking again of Eckhart Tolle.

For a long time now I have yearned to hear Eckhart Tolle speak at length about how he became Awakened, how it feels, what goes through his head, how his life unfolds from moment to moment...

Here it is... enjoy!

Sounds so familiar. It could so easily have sprung from the inner mind of so many Jewish Kaballah or Christian mystics, or a Muslim Sufi poet. 

To me it sounds most like Hindu Advaita and of course the teachings of the Buddha; for those who have already been blessed enough to hear a fraction of its limitless bounty, it sounds like pure Dzogchen. Mahamudra. Zen.
For those who have never heard anything like it before, fear not, be at peace. As so many Irish Mammies have said, 'If it is for you, it won't pass you by'.

... It is the sound of the Outer Teacher speaking to your Inner Teacher.

It is the Truth.
No more, no less.
Pure and Simple.

May All Beings Wake Up.